One month later . . .

Seth is already a month old and somehow we are all still alive and doing well. He's really a great baby, but life with 2 kids is completely different than life with just one (and I'm sure life with 3 and more is just magnified). I consider it a great accomplishment most days to shower and put real clothes on, never mind cleaning or actually going out of the house! There have been several days that both Luke and I have spent in our jammies (which of course he doesn't mind!). Last night David and I went away for the night to celebrate our 5th wedding anniversary (I pumped and Seth got bottles), and I can't believe how great it feels to actually sleep through the night. I know it's going to be a long time before that happens again, but it was wonderful! I've been amazed at how easy it is to love this little boy. I couldn't imagine loving another child the way that I love Luke, and yet somehow I do. I really miss the undivided attention I used to be able to give to Luke though, and I know he misses it too. A couple of nights ago he just cried and cried when we put him down for bed (which he rarely does) and when I finally went in to him he just wanted to be held. He fell asleep in my arms and as I rocked my precious baby I just wanted time to stop. He felt so big (especially compared to my newborn) and I realized he's just going to keep getting bigger and continue changing. I want him to stay pure and innocent and sweet. I thank God every day for these sweet children and I sure hope I can help them return to Him some day. I've been lucky enough to fall deeply in love with 3 men, two of them just happen to be smaller versions of their father. Anyway, this post is just a bunch of random thoughts, but things are kind of random right now!

Life with 2 kiddos